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A Summer Without Lily

  • Sep. 1st, 2006 at 9:50 AM
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Today is the four-month anniversary of Lily's death.

It is still shocking and unreal to me that she isn't here with us, that the summer passed without her bright blue eyes and kisses. Lily was a summer dog. Despite her heft and longish fur (we teased her about having a Lab or a Malamute in the far-flung genetic woodpile), she would lie in the sunlight rather than shade even on the hottest of days, making me constantly worry that her pretty pink nose would sunburn. As a little Lily Memory, here's a picture from the Gallery that was taken last summer. She never passed up what she thought might be an opportunity for a car ride:





A heart-dog, or cat, is a pet whose presence filled your heart with a love unmatched by any other pet you've owned. The space left by its loss can never be filled by another animal, no matter how loving the pet or how long the years. Lily was my heart-dog, and I have felt her loss each and every day since May 1st. Sometimes I could shake my head and move on with other tasks. At other times I shed a few tears. But sometimes, after the sun sets, I go out to her little corner in the backyard and literally wail at the stars. A few days ago, [info]docbrite lost her precious Nathan, and my heart breaks all over again for her. I know how crushing it is to lose a heart-pet, and how painful.  We will love other pets with everything we can, but there will forever be a hollow, lonely space inside us.

 

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[info]flemmarde wrote:
Sep. 1st, 2006 11:55 pm (UTC)
*hugs*

nothing else to say :(
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[info]yvonnenavarro wrote:
Sep. 7th, 2006 08:27 pm (UTC)
Thank you.
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[info]airbornevet wrote:
Sep. 3rd, 2006 12:13 am (UTC)
My thoughts are with you. All my kitties send kisses.
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[info]yvonnenavarro wrote:
Sep. 7th, 2006 08:29 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Jen. Kitty kisses are good, too.
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[info]airbornevet wrote:
Sep. 8th, 2006 02:46 pm (UTC)
Even if they are a little rough on the toungue. :-)
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[info]plumaria wrote:
Sep. 4th, 2006 05:07 am (UTC)
My heart breaks for you. We lost our beloved Riley-dog on the summer solstice (osteosarcoma) He was a beautiful Rotty/lab pound pup who was almost 13. The loss is overwhelming. Each night when I got home Riley used to meet me in the garage, and acted for all the world like I was the Messiah returning lol...his absence is palpable for all of us. (I know your journal, bacause I follow Cardigirl's journal)..I'm a cousin of Flemmarde who lives in Geneva...Sigh...loss of our pets is so difficult and so hard to move through the grief. We've just now started to look at the pounds here on the Big Island of Hawaii. My Husb and I want a Riley-esque watch dog, and my youngest girl Amanda (16) wants a teacup type dog...we've decided to get 2 dogs as we're all out of the house during the day..so a teacup/rotty duo it will be! My thoughts and emppathy are with you. Hang in there. Grief is a bitch. You can't climb over it. You can't walk through it, or slide under it. It is something that takes ages and ages to come to a state of acceptance. I'm nowhere near that point with Riley.
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[info]yvonnenavarro wrote:
Sep. 7th, 2006 08:46 pm (UTC)
Thank you -- I remember you and your nice comments when Lily first left us. I'm so sorry to hear about Riley. 13 years is a long time-- it's wonderful that you had so much time, yet so very hard to let go. Think of Riley and Lily playing over the Rainbow Bridge. She is relentless about getting attention when she wants it.
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[info]johndark1985 wrote:
Sep. 5th, 2006 12:29 am (UTC)
I do understand exactly what you are saying.
Our pets are our children. They are a large part of our lives. Losing a friend is hard. My cat Patty was looking under the weather and I took her to the vet and got her checked out. She's my buddy. She's always following me all over the place and bugs me continuously all day to pet her all the time. She's a touch junkie that wakes me up by pressing her nose to mine in the middle of the night.
The vet just gave us some medicine and said that she'll be OK. She's getting old and getting the cat equivalent of arthritis. All of us get old but it happens quicker to them.
We can only repay the love they give us by giving them love and treating them good. Just try to remember the good times.

Take Care
Bob
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(Anonymous) wrote:
Nov. 14th, 2006 07:52 pm (UTC)
I’m so sorry for your loss and I fell your pain we lost our beloved Heidi 2 weeks and 2 days ago. We had a family member sit with our 3 furkids and he got up let 2 of them out and went back to sleep. I came home only to find our baby dead on the road. I am having a hard time dealing with the loss and not blaming him for her death. She would be 3 on 12/12/06 she was with us only a short time but we loved her very much.

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[info]yvonnenavarro wrote:
Nov. 15th, 2006 04:21 am (UTC)
How awful to lose Heidi that way. I know how hard it is. After all this time, I still can't think of Lily without tears and what-ifs. Many years ago in 1980, I left a tiny, beloved dog I'd had for 5 years and raised from a 2 week old pup (no teeth, eyes still closed) in the care of my (now ex-) mother-in-law while we went to the movies. She left the door open and I never saw that sweet little dog again, and I still regret that. It's just so very hard.
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